This morning when I stood before the Lord I held my arms up and open wide. These past few weeks the Lord has been showing me some new and very real things about myself. I have felt very worthless and disappointed in myself this past month.(which I know is not from the Lord) God has called me to a season of waiting and it has been so HARD!!! It's been hard because I am a doer and I love to be involved in the ministry as much as I can as a leader. What am I waiting for Lord? Waiting to see where he wants me to go, waiting to see his direction, and waiting to hear his voice. During this waiting time I have seen a lot of things in me that I really need to just surrender to the Lord. We can so easily say, "here Lord have your way with me but just with this one little area." That's so easy right? I know that's what I have done in the past. So just this week the Lord has continued to show me that hey Chela this life that I have given you is not ALL ABOUT YOU! It's about serving others, it's about my family, my church family, my friends and most of all it's about GOD! So today I stood before the Lord and said, Here Lord with my arms open wide have your way with me. My whole life is yours.
This song by Hillsong United just really grabbed me and is everything I am saying to the Lord. I have laid some pretty big things before the Lord in prayer and I know that I may not see them right now but I know he is working. He is working even in the quiet waiting season that I am in right now! Praise God. I am not walking alone!
"we live by faith, not by sight." 2 Cor. 5:7
"be joyful always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will." 1 Thes. 5:16-18
This verse has been so helpful to me right now. Though I am not totally excited about a few circumstances I need to be joyful and just continue to pray and God's will will be done! I know that Gods timing is always better then mine.